Ah Ha!

Ah the wonders of Mondays!
I think I hate Mondays, but everyone also goes back to school and work on Mondays, and i don't have to hear "Mom..." or "Mom! Tell so-so to stop..." or "honey where's the..." Yes i can sit back and relax and just be.
I like to just be. It's when I have the most insight and all my ah-ha's come to me. It only happens for a few moments each day and sometimes I can't sit still long enough for it or sometimes I miss it and than I have double the ah-ha's going through my head and it gets over crowded. I never know exactly when Imissed my moment until it is too late.
I defaintly must of missed it this weekend because the thoughts are flying through my head faster than I can type. I have no idea what to do let a lone what to do first! Kind of like figuring out which end is up.
I am not a very organized person, and that is putting it mildly. I know there are a few people who would even go so far as to say I am a slob or lazy or scattered brained. I am all those things! (I just won't admit it out loud, and blogging about it don't count!) So be it. To each their own!
I would rather have a messy house because I was too lazy to stop giggling with my kids from playing telephone. I would rather have forgotten something because I was having a heart to heart with my daughter. Or I'd rather be a slob and not shower in the morning because I had a few extra minutes to snuggle with my hubby. Those things don't happen all the time and I would much rather look back and say "yeap, that was fun!" instead of "Awww, I wish I hadn't of missed that!"
I realize everyday how quickly time goes by; everytime I look at one of my children and see how big they are, I'm honored (most of the time) that they still want to be with me, play with me, and hang out with me! I hold my breath waiting for the day when my oldest rolls her eyes and tells me she's too busy to sit and play telephone with me because that's lame! I know it'll happen, just like I know one day she will look back and say "I wish I would of..." We all do these things and our children are going to do the same thing.
I'm feeling sentimental today. It's snowing and I could hear my dad's voice in my head, "It's flakin' outside!" My dad has been dead for ten years. I miss him. I don't know if it's the flakes, or that the annierversary of his death wasn't to long ago, or that his birthday was on Christmas, or that his favorite holiday was Christmas. Or maybe it's just because I love my dad and miss him a lot and that my friends is okay. I don't need a reason to feel sad, and I don't need an excuse to miss my dad.
The sad sentiments will past a long with the tears (but my eyes will probably be puffy for the rest of the afternoon!) and maybe tomorrow I will think "Wow! I remember doing this with my dad!" And smile because I am able to have that thought instead of regretting that I didn't!
I have no regrets today. I try to do it all with everyone I love because I know one day I won't be here and I want my children to think "That was so awesome when mom did..." Instead of "I wish I could of shared that with mom but she was too busy cleaning!"
I'm done! It's time to go and get my stuff done. I'm glad I had this moment to just sit and be...the ah-ha's that came were priceless.