Treading water

I would be the first to say I am an optismistic person. I see the cup half full! I look for the good in every situation! If I don't like someone I try to find a quality in them I do like! I'm optismistic, always have and probably always will.
So when depression hits, it hits hard! It's hard to be optismistic when you are depressed. The world seems so dark. All I want to do is sleep, forget getting dress or showering!
Last year I exiperienced a depression that was so bad that you could find me in bed in the fetal position. I have children, three of them to be exact, and I love my children more than life itself, but when I am depressed, it doesn't matter how much they mean to me...as long as they leave me alone! :( it's sad but true!
After last years bout I have taken precautions to not be in the fetal position in my bed.
I take my meds.
I get up and dressed.
I walk my oldest daughter to the bus stop. (instead of standing inside by the window!)
I go outside for at least ten minutes a day.
I try to keep up on the household chores.
When I do these things I can keep my head above the water! And that usually works and in a few days I feel better, but this last bout has been longer than a few days. My head is above the water but you know what? I'm getting really tired of treading water.

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