My aching head!

I have had the worst sinus headache since Tuesday! (It was fine while I was in Austin! Maybe I should go back!) Nothing I take or do helps. A friend told me about a neti pot and I am going to go look for it, but it's bad!
I didn't sleep well last night, didn't want to get up this morning, and defiantly do not want to go driving around in the snow with my bald tires! Why oh why does it have to be so miserable out? I understand it's February and I live in Ohio, but isn't it time for global warming to take affect? I would not complain if Mother nature decided to have it be 80 degrees instead of 20! Crap, I would throw a party!!!
Oh Brown dog barks and it feels like my skull is rattling!!! Can I go to bed and wake up in maybe May? I like May! Would sometime please come take care of my kids, walk my dogs, run my errands, do my housework so I can hibernate until May?
Do I have any volunteers???
Anyone???
Anyone???
Please...Anyone???
No, okay, than I guess I will survive! I just got to get rid of this headache, I think the world would look better if I didn't have a headache!
I'm done whining...carry on with your day!

P.S.
My background is pink, and I am NOT feeling very pink-ish right now! Sorry for the sudden change!

It's been a while...Did you missed me?

Busy, busy busy been I have! Sorry my son is watching Star Wars, I love Yoda! I didn't when I first saw the movie in the theater (Yes, the first time it was released! Yes, I am showing my age!) He scared me! I think he scared me so much that my grandma had to take me out of the theater. It turned out okay, because when it was all over we just stay and watched it again. (or was that E.T.?) Now I'm not sure, BUT I am sure that Yoda talks funny, and as funny as I find it, I can't quite talk like him. I guess was not I an impersonator shall be.
I've been busy! The fam and I just got back (two days ago!) from Austin, Texas. We went for my hubby's niece's wedding. (Yes technically she is my niece but I refuse to have a niece who is 24, so she is my hubby's niece!) It was beautiful, the wedding and Austin! The week before we went, I was trying to finish an afghan I was making for my hubby's niece and her hubby-to-be, but I didn't get it done. I decided to finish it when we got home and mail it to them! I like to make squares, and than sew them together in rows, and than sew the rows together to make a blanket. The only problem is that you have to sew in all these ends and its just hideous work!
Since we got home I have been catching up on my shows, and making room on my DVR and cuddling with my pups. I didn't realize how much I missed them until we got home Monday night and went to bed.
Bo and Duke. White Dog. Brown Dog. My boys.
Duke curled up above my head on "our" pillow with his paw across my chest, and Bo laid right next to me with my arm around his neck! I fell right to sleep and woke the next morning exactly how we fell asleep.
My pups who weigh in at 75-85 pounds think they are lap dogs.(When realistically they are blanket dogs, they crawl on your lap and cover your body!) They have been super cuddly and lovable. As a matter of fact, we have a date this afternoon (after the bus comes to the little yahoos to school) with the couch, a bowl of popcorn, the afghan in progress and Season 1 of Criminal Minds.
Yes, even though the weather sucks in Ohio, it is good to be home!

Change...

Oh boy, change!
I'm not a big fan of change. I like to keep things simple and simple to me is the way they are and have been for eternity! I don't like to cause ripples in the lake and I don't like to disturb the space that I like to be in.
I changed my blog!
I guess it looks okay. (If it didn't at least look okay to me I wouldn't have changed it!)
What force of natural made me decide to change my blog?
Someone said, "It's a little too dark!"
handing me the pebble that I chose to throw in to the lake.

I know, I know! I sit here almost everyday (at least the other day!) And rant about how I am not going to please others! How I don't care what they think! And blah, blah blah!!! I know! But the evil voice inside my head whispered, "If she thinks its too dark, how many others think its too dark?" and the ugly ripple started!

I like dark!

I like dark! Dark represents the evil one inside, the rebellion, the one who says "F*** It!" and once upon a time everything in my closet was black, not so much nowadays! (I think that is a good thing! don''t get me wrong, I still have several black tank tops, little tee shirts, and a black dress, but I also have pinks, purples, blues, greens and 1 yellow and 1 orange)
So I changed it...it's not comfy yet! (Like every other change that happens in my life!) I guess I'll have to break it in, like a new pair of jeans. It hasn't settled yet. Once it does, months from now (but really just a few days!) I will like it and be glad that I did it!
Or maybe I'll just say F*** It! and change it back!

What You See...

Is What You Get!
I'm not on here to promote my writing. I'm not on here to become someone. I am someone. I'm Me. Sure I have faults. (I never said I was perfect!) I drink way to much coffee. Occasionally, I like a cigarette. (or five!) I am not proper. Or formal. I am not a neat person. I am not fake. I do not pretend to be someone I am not!
I played that game once and the honest truth is it isn't very fun! I don't wear masks. I don't try to be someone I am not to please you or to make you like me.
I am a mother. I am a person. I am a wife. I am a daughter. I am a sister and I am a friend. (in no particular order!) And if that isn't enough for you, oh well!
All I want in life is to make MY family happy and when I say MY family I mean my husband, daughter, son and youngest daughter. That's it! Sure if others happen to reek the benefits of my actions and end up happy than so be it.
I've learned that the people you try to please will never be pleased, they are constitutionally incapable of inner happiness. Sure they think if they have A, B, and C they will be happy. Than when they get A, B, and C they want D, E and F too!
The thing that irks me the most is people who pretend to be someone they are not! People who judge you before they even know you. People who think that all the pretty things in the world will make them happy.
I don't need outside things to make me happy. Sure it is nice, but if you took all the material things away would I still be happy? You bet, because I know it's an inside job! In order for me to be happy with all the outer stuff I need to be happy with all the inner stuff, and today I am! (Except with the smoking, I'm not too pleased with that, but I never said I was perfect!)
Now you know what I am not!
Would you like to know what I am?
I am a mother. (and a damn good one too!) I am a wife. I am a friend. I pick and choose my battles carefully because somethings aren't worth getting worked up about. I am passionate. I am a friend and I have your back. My friendship comes unconditional, sure there might be things about you that I don't care for, but if you need me I am there, no matter what those things are!
Yes, I have self image issues, who doesn't? I wish I was ten pounds lighter, and my nose wasn't so big and the wrinkles and bags around my eyes would disappear. But (most days) I can live with those things.
I would love to say I am a writer, and in retrospect I guess I am, but I think I spun my mind blowing story and now I'm done. Does that mean I'm giving up? Heck no! I keep trying, even though nothing is coming or feels as good as my little story did! Am I going to continue to do things with that story? You betcha! It takes time, and patience, and patience isn't one of my strongest suits! If I ever become a published writer than it is going to happen because I can tell a great story, and that is the only reason it'll happen.
Do I have any idea where this came from? Nope, just wanted to express it. And that is why I am here to express myself. I may not make sense, I may not talk about important things but this helps clear my head, and to me that is priceless.
And there you have it, What you see is what you get, and as the ever wise Bugs Bunny said... that's all folks! (or was it the little bald guy that stuttered who said that?!?)

It's your lucky day, two for the price of one

Ahh, to have extra time given to you! What a gift that is!
My little ones friend's mom called this morning and asked if they could come over and play today. (Over at his house because my puppies scare him!) And I said, "Sure, I'll call transportation and they can take the bus together!" And she agreed. She said about 11am I said ok, that gave me 2 whole extra hours to myself!
I called and gave the info to transportation, got my two ready and drove them over to their friends house.
When I turned on his street, I realized I had given transportation the wrong street name.
Uh-oh! Did I tell the mother?
Nope! Why not?
Because it's embarrassing! they have been playing over at his house since October, they live RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER, and I can't remember the street name! Hello????
I proceed to do my running around starting to feel bad, what if the bus driver didn't let my kids on the bus? Would the mother try calling me or just drive them to school? If my littlest couldn't get on the bus she was going to be very upset, and it isn't fair for anyone to see the wrath of Luci! (She's stubborn just like her father!)
I got done running around and drove down their street and I figured I would stop and if they didn't get on the bus I would drive them to school, least I could do!
the bus driver let them on, everyone was happy! And I didn't look totally ridiculous. (I just felt it!)
Now I am home, my pups are trying to eat each other and I have 2 hours until the kids start coming home.
I don't know if I want to watch TV, read, nap, write, or talk on the phone, but I am going to do something! Have a good one!

Where you going with this?

I'm not exactly sure what is on my mind right now at this moment. Something is because the wheels are turning so fast that I have a thought and before I can process that thought another thought comes racing in and than they get all jumbled together and I say things like "go comb your teeth and brush your hair! And don't forget to change all of your milk and drink your underwear!"
When I get so jumbled up like that I need to write; whether it be my story, my blog, my journal or my email I NEED to write! SOMETHING!!!
It does work well when I'm in the middle of a story and I get another one running through my head and than another and than another and I have four freight trains zipping through my head. The difference ( yes there is a difference!) is when I have stories flying through my head they stay straight, on the right track, never getting mixed up! Unlike everyday thought about combing teeth and brushing hair!
Why is that?
No seriously why is that? Anyone? Please?
I have a theory would you be interested in hearing it? (Sure you would or you would be here right now!)
My theory is that I have 2 main tracks, decisions and everyday thought, in my head. Everytime I think of a new story my track multiplies!
Yes, my track multiplies so that the new story has something to run on. The more stories I think of, the more my tracks multiply, pushing the two original tracks (my everyday thoughts and my decisions) over to the side, that eventually my thoughts and decisions are running on the edge of their tracks merging into one because there is no room. Which makes it hard for me to have a complete thought. (Hence go comb your teeth and brush your hair! Although technically brush your hair makes senses except in my house hold because we all come our hair!)
Now that one train has unloaded, (by me writing) I can go and work on a story or whatever, and it won't feel so crazy up there.
There you have it folks, a glimpse at how my brain functions.
Has it always been like this?
Nope, I think it got worst as I got older! (or I just didn't notice it as much as I do now!)
I know it defiantly got screwy when I started having babies.