What You See...

Is What You Get!
I'm not on here to promote my writing. I'm not on here to become someone. I am someone. I'm Me. Sure I have faults. (I never said I was perfect!) I drink way to much coffee. Occasionally, I like a cigarette. (or five!) I am not proper. Or formal. I am not a neat person. I am not fake. I do not pretend to be someone I am not!
I played that game once and the honest truth is it isn't very fun! I don't wear masks. I don't try to be someone I am not to please you or to make you like me.
I am a mother. I am a person. I am a wife. I am a daughter. I am a sister and I am a friend. (in no particular order!) And if that isn't enough for you, oh well!
All I want in life is to make MY family happy and when I say MY family I mean my husband, daughter, son and youngest daughter. That's it! Sure if others happen to reek the benefits of my actions and end up happy than so be it.
I've learned that the people you try to please will never be pleased, they are constitutionally incapable of inner happiness. Sure they think if they have A, B, and C they will be happy. Than when they get A, B, and C they want D, E and F too!
The thing that irks me the most is people who pretend to be someone they are not! People who judge you before they even know you. People who think that all the pretty things in the world will make them happy.
I don't need outside things to make me happy. Sure it is nice, but if you took all the material things away would I still be happy? You bet, because I know it's an inside job! In order for me to be happy with all the outer stuff I need to be happy with all the inner stuff, and today I am! (Except with the smoking, I'm not too pleased with that, but I never said I was perfect!)
Now you know what I am not!
Would you like to know what I am?
I am a mother. (and a damn good one too!) I am a wife. I am a friend. I pick and choose my battles carefully because somethings aren't worth getting worked up about. I am passionate. I am a friend and I have your back. My friendship comes unconditional, sure there might be things about you that I don't care for, but if you need me I am there, no matter what those things are!
Yes, I have self image issues, who doesn't? I wish I was ten pounds lighter, and my nose wasn't so big and the wrinkles and bags around my eyes would disappear. But (most days) I can live with those things.
I would love to say I am a writer, and in retrospect I guess I am, but I think I spun my mind blowing story and now I'm done. Does that mean I'm giving up? Heck no! I keep trying, even though nothing is coming or feels as good as my little story did! Am I going to continue to do things with that story? You betcha! It takes time, and patience, and patience isn't one of my strongest suits! If I ever become a published writer than it is going to happen because I can tell a great story, and that is the only reason it'll happen.
Do I have any idea where this came from? Nope, just wanted to express it. And that is why I am here to express myself. I may not make sense, I may not talk about important things but this helps clear my head, and to me that is priceless.
And there you have it, What you see is what you get, and as the ever wise Bugs Bunny said... that's all folks! (or was it the little bald guy that stuttered who said that?!?)